Entah

penat lelah aku mengharungi kehidupan, perih sedih pedih semua aku simpan dalam hati. pedih hati ini siapa yang tahu? payah hidup ini siapa ambil peduli?

Yesterday

Berasa sangat sedih dan tidak berdaya. Rasa ingin menulis nak dan meluahkan perasaan yang dah lama terbuku niii. Kenapa aku sedih sangat ni? Byk sebab sebenarnya. Rasa sangat sakit bila.... Entahlah. Jari jemari aku menari lincah atas papan kekunci. Tidak tahu apa yang ditulis. Tiada hala tuju dan hany amenulis, rasa beban ini sepertinya tak tertanggung lagi. Ingin saja aku meluahkan dan memberi tahu perasaan sebenar aku pada nya. Tapi rasa takut aku melebihi segala galanya. Takut tidak diterima, takut dipandang serong dan bermacam lagi. Org kata jangan mencari cinta, cinta akan datang sendiri. Hati aku ni dah lali dengan perkataan disakiti tu, byk kali dah. Tak terkira. TAK TERKIRA. aku rephrase kann perkataan tu. sebab aku tahu aku tidak sempurna, aku tidak menepati ciri ciri bbeliau. mungkin? tapi hati ni, sakit tahu? aku berpura saja selama ni, aku berpura aku bahagia sedangkan hati ni memberontak cakap tidak. kau tahu kah perkara itu boleh buatkan aku gloomy sepanjang masa? tahukah engkau bila aki nampak saja nama kau aku menangis? kamu adalah the real heart breaker. maaf

LOST

I lost my balance in life. But when I met you, my dull life becomes sparkled again. I throw my sadness to you, I put aside my ego. I had locked my heart, and throw the key away since forever. I don't know why, what the solid reasons of our meeting on bluebird chip chip and makes me wanna find the key back. I lost in my own world. I never want to meet you, to know you or to even know your name. Seriously, I don't want to fell in love again. It is because when I'm falling in love, I fell in too deep. That is my problem. I seek for an attention frankly speaking. You'd draw a rainbow with seven difference colors, but the rainbow will appear after a heavy rain. Am I sort of a Lil kiddo for you? As it seems, the way you treated me, I see it in a different way. My fault isn't it? When I walk passed you, I don't have guts to say "Hi!" I wanted to say it, eagerly. But I just can't do it. Not enough courage I guess. But you? Your responds? You bravely go and say Hi, without any suspicions with my feelings towards you. Plus, I'm a sort of magnet to you? When you saw me at cafes', classes, or even passing by, you will chase after me just to say Hi. What kind of jokes is this? You played with my heart aren't ya? - Maybe, that is not your intention, but I'm the one who playing with my own heart. I'm doomed -