LOST

I lost my balance in life. But when I met you, my dull life becomes sparkled again. I throw my sadness to you, I put aside my ego. I had locked my heart, and throw the key away since forever. I don't know why, what the solid reasons of our meeting on bluebird chip chip and makes me wanna find the key back. I lost in my own world. I never want to meet you, to know you or to even know your name. Seriously, I don't want to fell in love again. It is because when I'm falling in love, I fell in too deep. That is my problem. I seek for an attention frankly speaking. You'd draw a rainbow with seven difference colors, but the rainbow will appear after a heavy rain. Am I sort of a Lil kiddo for you? As it seems, the way you treated me, I see it in a different way. My fault isn't it? When I walk passed you, I don't have guts to say "Hi!" I wanted to say it, eagerly. But I just can't do it. Not enough courage I guess. But you? Your responds? You bravely go and say Hi, without any suspicions with my feelings towards you. Plus, I'm a sort of magnet to you? When you saw me at cafes', classes, or even passing by, you will chase after me just to say Hi. What kind of jokes is this? You played with my heart aren't ya? - Maybe, that is not your intention, but I'm the one who playing with my own heart. I'm doomed -