Puzzle

At one time, I' feel that I'm very happy but when I came back from fantasy to reality, I can feel the pain. And as usual, I ignore it. To satisfy my own feelings. That is what I'm best at. Truth to be told, It's always best if we didn't know the truth rather than we knew it all along and pretend not to see it. I'm hanging around...somewhere. In the middle of happiness, and I'm on my way to the ugliness truth :'( I don't want to be someone who's not thankful and grateful. I know my place. I know my limits. I know it very well. My brain told me to stop. But my heart won't. What I can do now is,waiting.