Ajari Aku

Seriously I love this song Ajari Aku by Anuar Zain. I donno why. I rarely listen to a Malay song, but this one is so captivating! Ajari aku tuk bisa Menjadi yang engkau cinta Agar ku bisa memiliki rasa Yang luar biasa untukku dan untukmu Ku harap engkau mengerti Akan semua yang ku pinta Karna kau cahaya hidupku malamku Tuk terangi jalan ku yang berliku Hanya engkau yang bisa Hanya engkau yang tahu Hanya engkau yang mengerti Semua inginku Mungkinkah semua akan terjadi pada diriku Hanya engkau yang bisa mencintaiku Hanya engkau yang bisa Hanya engkau yang tahu Hanya engkau yang mengerti Semua inginku Hanya engkau yang tahu Hanya engkau yang mengerti Semua inginku Ajari aku tuk bisa mencintaimu

Video Muzik Ajari Aku Anuar Zain Official Music Video Anuar Zain Network

The Scent

Flu is gettin worst day by day. But I'd never failed to sense his scent.

:O

The scent of his smell. I can't sleep with it. Quite addictive. Heh :P

Puzzle

At one time, I' feel that I'm very happy but when I came back from fantasy to reality, I can feel the pain. And as usual, I ignore it. To satisfy my own feelings. That is what I'm best at. Truth to be told, It's always best if we didn't know the truth rather than we knew it all along and pretend not to see it. I'm hanging around...somewhere. In the middle of happiness, and I'm on my way to the ugliness truth :'( I don't want to be someone who's not thankful and grateful. I know my place. I know my limits. I know it very well. My brain told me to stop. But my heart won't. What I can do now is,waiting.

XOXO

I AM SORRY :(

Special Entry To The Petite Boy

Tonight at 2:07am, I'm typing like a retard who can't fall asleep. When no one is around, here am I writing stuffs. Writing and writing. Maybe I'm like a retard. Hahaha I don't know what's with the week. Everyone is so sweet towards me. Alhamdulillah. At some time, I think Id received much love from them, but at some time I think I'd received none. Depends on luck. DEPENDS. But tonight this one lil sweet boy really really really touched my heart with his act. My phone's line is so bad. And I can't make calls, text, nor receiving it. So I kinda stress because he called me like 10times and couldn't connect. He said that he want to treat me dinner. Maybe because of his guiltiness towards me. He promised to see me, but then he said that he got no guts and so unprepared. At the same time I have a problem with le parents so I'm kinda mad at that time. Apparently, he is the one who's there when I was mad and unfortunately terkena tempias. I am so sorry. I couldn't tahan. And I'm so mad at the line, I couldn't make a call, nor a single call! I feel pity to him. I've waited for an hour. To make sure the line is okay so that I can make a call. And once again, i CAN'T. Even now, at 2:36am, still can't connect. Grrr.... When I was asleep, at 1255am I've woken up by my roommate's voice. She said that someone wanted to see me. Someone that she didn't know. Who's knocking our door at midnight? Haaahaahahaha. And I was shock when I saw Scha in front of my door bringing KFC. *JAW DROPS* "MONG, NI H***** BAGI* I was like......Mong~~ "Oh..oh...okay" I can't say a word. Totally surprised! Scha was never in my level and I don't know how can she climbed up to my level and make a delivery service midnight. Midnight! And Scha doesn't even know where is my room. Seriously Scha, Thank you pretty! :) Babe, you buy my heart with 3 ayams? Haaaa surely you're the cleverest petite boy I've ever met in my life. I can't eat it because I'm too shock! How can he tahan with my perangai and the line.....not picking up the calls, not replying his whatsapp and his text, still...STILL buying me food to eat because I don't take my dinner yet. Seriously, I'm glad to have you as my .... my ..my friend? :') I wouldn't believe that he will did this for real, why bother with me? I don't know..... Please don't make this happened again..... feel reluctant and i feel that I'm the one who's pushing you or what. :'( Yes, I'm often to get sulky, and I am sorry. I AM SORRY SHAM. Surely I will treat you after this. And we'll talk about this later on. Thank you so much :') I AM SORRY! Thankful, Glad and.....I don't know :') XOXO, M PUBLISH :) <3 *Save me on your playlist, so you won't forget me*

Special Entry to My Brother

What a surprise week. Now I can tell who is friend and who is none other than a friend, what we called it....the fake one. But I'm so glad that I have a lot of sweet friends. For an example, I don't have cashes for a week. So, apparently I have to spend it, my money very wisely or else I don't have any cashes left. And, Sali my brother said " I masih mampu tanggung you. Don't worry" I'm so glad that I have someone like him. Not in a love perspective, but in the relationship we called a family. I will never forget what he did to me. Even sampai mati sekalipun. He is too kind. I pray for his happiness. May Allah grant his wish to find a good woman. In Shaa Allah! At one fine night, my only intuition is to finish my assignment so I don'y buy any food at cafe, and when I'm the middle of finishing my work, I read up Sali's tweet. He said he's already bought food for dinner at another cafe. Ahhh no wonderlah when I asked him to join us he refused to. It's okaylah kan. But in 15mins later,he came. And he gave me the food that he bought earlier and left without saying any words...And I was like......................Brother, :') Seriously I wanna cry over it but I have to remain as coolest as I can. But seriously deep in my heart I'm touched. He is really thoughtful and sweet. Thank you. I am no good in appreciating things, I ...only can say how thankful I am only in my blog. I don't have any courage to do so. Thank you Faisalli Amil Majuni, :) People often misunderstand our relationship. They thought that we're a lovey dovey couple. But hell no, our relationship is more wonderful than a lovey dovey couple, because we're like a family. He is indeed my brother. So stop judging us, because we don't even care. We're strong.

induction 2012

meet hazim shauki everyone. the thought of this will be his last sem. haihhh :(

Hello

Setelah sekian lama aku tak update blog. Dah berusang ni. Hoho. Okay where to sart actually? Hahahaha love life? Campus life? Family matters? Or nothing? Hahahaha okay surely I will get back on track later on. Now I'm not in the mood to be a storyteller. Hikhik. Xoxo, - Mong

RM5000

To fly to Korea I have to save up my money. RM5000. Can ah by this end of March-April? Duhh.... Only have RM900++ only. How can I find lagi RM3500++? :(

Entah

penat lelah aku mengharungi kehidupan, perih sedih pedih semua aku simpan dalam hati. pedih hati ini siapa yang tahu? payah hidup ini siapa ambil peduli?

Yesterday

Berasa sangat sedih dan tidak berdaya. Rasa ingin menulis nak dan meluahkan perasaan yang dah lama terbuku niii. Kenapa aku sedih sangat ni? Byk sebab sebenarnya. Rasa sangat sakit bila.... Entahlah. Jari jemari aku menari lincah atas papan kekunci. Tidak tahu apa yang ditulis. Tiada hala tuju dan hany amenulis, rasa beban ini sepertinya tak tertanggung lagi. Ingin saja aku meluahkan dan memberi tahu perasaan sebenar aku pada nya. Tapi rasa takut aku melebihi segala galanya. Takut tidak diterima, takut dipandang serong dan bermacam lagi. Org kata jangan mencari cinta, cinta akan datang sendiri. Hati aku ni dah lali dengan perkataan disakiti tu, byk kali dah. Tak terkira. TAK TERKIRA. aku rephrase kann perkataan tu. sebab aku tahu aku tidak sempurna, aku tidak menepati ciri ciri bbeliau. mungkin? tapi hati ni, sakit tahu? aku berpura saja selama ni, aku berpura aku bahagia sedangkan hati ni memberontak cakap tidak. kau tahu kah perkara itu boleh buatkan aku gloomy sepanjang masa? tahukah engkau bila aki nampak saja nama kau aku menangis? kamu adalah the real heart breaker. maaf

LOST

I lost my balance in life. But when I met you, my dull life becomes sparkled again. I throw my sadness to you, I put aside my ego. I had locked my heart, and throw the key away since forever. I don't know why, what the solid reasons of our meeting on bluebird chip chip and makes me wanna find the key back. I lost in my own world. I never want to meet you, to know you or to even know your name. Seriously, I don't want to fell in love again. It is because when I'm falling in love, I fell in too deep. That is my problem. I seek for an attention frankly speaking. You'd draw a rainbow with seven difference colors, but the rainbow will appear after a heavy rain. Am I sort of a Lil kiddo for you? As it seems, the way you treated me, I see it in a different way. My fault isn't it? When I walk passed you, I don't have guts to say "Hi!" I wanted to say it, eagerly. But I just can't do it. Not enough courage I guess. But you? Your responds? You bravely go and say Hi, without any suspicions with my feelings towards you. Plus, I'm a sort of magnet to you? When you saw me at cafes', classes, or even passing by, you will chase after me just to say Hi. What kind of jokes is this? You played with my heart aren't ya? - Maybe, that is not your intention, but I'm the one who playing with my own heart. I'm doomed -

YS

I don't know... its been ages since I fell in Love.

Last time, I fell in love with someone but then..

CRASH CRUSH AND BURN- THE END

but then, when I was still doomed, devastated, and frustrated some more

there's one guy I knew.

so suddenly he came into my life.

without any warning or what.

I asked Allah " O Allah, is he's the one this time? Seriously I'm tired.

I hope this time is surreal. Okay, I liked him for some reason.

Can you give me a chance, O Allah?"

I hope so

:')